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Tony Yeng a.k.a Toki Yoki Moto, Jaundice and Roy
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| Is dancing a drug? |
[May. 7th, 2005|02:10 am] |
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Before anyone says anything..yes yes i know that I havent been on here for a while but what more can i say then...meh...Well a lot has happened to me since my last update. If i rememeber correctly i was reporting some rather grim news of my grandmothers passing and how it was my first experience with death and I was shaken up by it for a good amount of time. But the people here and the wishes of my friends back home got me through the tough time. Well anyways its may seventh and im done with this year on the twentieth..I cant wait to go home. I mean I love this school and the people ive met here but jeezum, i needs me a break. My roomies are becoming overly messy narcisistic mofos with no regard for anyone and they think there all knowing so whatever anyone (usually me) says is wrong. meh. Dan Dave and Ron, I know that I havent kept in touch, and I know there is no real excuse for that and I hope you guys will still want to chill over the summer and such.I have been busy concentrating on my school work to do anything really that requires some time such as lj. But since its nearing the end of the first year of college I logged on and shouting all my peeps a holla. Well for all those who havent already heard I have found a new passion in life...dancing. And I dont mean all that techno, shake your body/grinding club dancing. But rather classical dancing. Since coming here I have gained an appreciation for jazz and have taken up Swing dance, Ballroom dance and recently country line dance. Well swing dancing is swing dancing there is nothing really more that can be said about it except for it is the bomb. So much energy and so fun and ive been told im somewhat decent at it so that makes me happy. Give me a quick jazz beat and ill show you some dancing feet. lol...man that was corny as hell. Meh. Winter and spring quarter I have taken ballroom and latin ballroom, and its really fun, its a bit more formal than swing but it provides a nice counter balance to the free spirit of swing. I take solice in the fact that I think I can handle myself in most dancing situations if it arises. Tango, cha cha cha, merenguie, salsa, samba, waltz, 6 count american style ballroom swing, foxtrot, so on and so forth. And I know people are gonna make fun of me but over the winter quarter I dsicovered country line dancing and it is this wierd melding of both swing and ballroom because it has form cause we ance in lines but it also has this wierd sense of freedom. Its not as redneck as it sounds. Granted every thursday we go to a club called the roost to country line dance, but its not at all what it seems. What ever perception of line dancing you had would be blown by what me and my RA do every thursday with her RA buddies. its totally bad ass. This quarter I think I have made myself addicted to dancing, because I take four dancing classes throughout the week. On monday and wednesday I have country line dance for an hour, onb tuesday and thursday I have swing dance for an hour, and on wednes day I have a three hour block of Ballroom. On top of that before I go to the roost I help teach some dances at the country line dance club so on thursday I go from *pm to 2 Am country line dancing and I love every minute of it. I love dancing so much, but now I think im addicted, cause on fridays I have this sense of withdrawal cause I dont do any dancing...is dancing a drug...is it possible to freak out if i dont get my fix...pray for me argentina...pray for me...again I apologize for not staying in contact but I still love you guys and hopefully over the summer we can reminice of times past and exchange tales of our first years of college as we return for the summer, wiser and different than we were leaving revere |
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| Life |
[Mar. 7th, 2005|12:09 pm] |
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Recently I had lost my grandmother and at this current juncture in time i have gone threw an emotional gauntlet, experiencing many emotions in random sucession. At first, only angered coursed through my body, asking myself why my grandmother but I knew that it was gonna happen sooner or later. I am glad that I was able to be by her side as she passed into the next life. She was not my grandmother, she was a caretaker who raised my for a good amount of my early childhood and I thank her from the bottom and the heavens above for granting me such a person in my life. I worry more for my mom and my aunt, both who have survived so many things with my grandmother, as she layed in her deathbed, the only signs of life emminating through her body is the gentle rise and fall of her chest as the machine pushes air into her. By Sunday she was nothing more than a vessel with air in her, but they could not let her go, they did not take the mask off and let her lull herself into a gentle eternal sleep, they kept it on, so they could be with their mom for as long as they could. They do not sleep nor eat, just cry. I pray that they are okay and offer them my comfort. |
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[Nov. 12th, 2004|03:33 am] |
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Fuck...that about sums it up |
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| Days go by |
[Oct. 30th, 2004|01:12 pm] |
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Hey everyone I know i havent updated till the summer but im here now at RIT sharing all my randomo experiences and stories. I know that when you have a thing like an onine journal you should update it every once in a while...and I only got one thing to say to that..meh. Since being at RIT I have experienced a whole lot. The first week it was just constant fune veryone hanging out in my room cause it ws the biggest on the floor, just hanging out watching movies and things. Club sol was the name given to our room, and became a fitting one after we got the black lights, strobe lights and disco ball. Well anyways soon after the treu RIT was seen when classes started. We all still hang out nad things like that, but now its different. It seems as if everyone progressivly gets more and more depressed as they spend ore and more time at RIT. The overwhelming sense of entrappment due to evrything and anything made out of red brick here. In highschool I was the guy that was always happy not a care in the world, ut since ive been here even though nothing major has changed I have become very mellow and at time random shifts of sadness take over. I dont know what causes them or how to deal with them. ALl i know is that when they come I sit in my window sill look out into the distance and listen to some music...thats all i can do for the tie being. I still dot really know I feel abou this place. The people here are aesome but i dont know if the general enviroment is something that I wish to pursue in the next five years. Anyways Since ive been here ive also done some pretty sweet stuff. Ive joined sing dance so sooner or later ill be able to dance...enough said on that. We have also gone on many random adventure such as exploring an abandoned subway station and made many a trip to bj's and spent well over 200 on pop alone. Good times good times...well thats all i gotta say fo now drop me a line if ya want..this be your favorite asian signing off. |
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| Mada Mada Dane |
[Jul. 15th, 2004|10:55 pm] |
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Hullo one and all this be your favorite asian signin on. Well lets just say this week has been a very very very hillarious week. Well this week I "started my "Job." I put the "" around the word job cause...its not a really job. From five to 8:30 every monday-wednesday I watch over my second cousin Soleil. Its not a hard gig and I make a cool eighty a week (^_^). Well right here right now ima recap anyone reading on the happenings of what has gone on since monday
monday- Started new job. I went to Soleil's house at one and I discover that Dana (mother of Soleil) had to leave at one to do god knows what...so she asked me if ic ould start a little early and so I thought to myself "dern i knew this was gonna happen" so i shruged it off and there I was working overtime on my first day of the job. Well Lets just say it was no easy task that baby is crazyyy all she does is mess up the house and laughs when I clean it up. Well anyways it was a warm day so around eight o clock I decided to hang out on the front porch with my uncles and aunts. Soleil followed so lets just say...when there is a one inch gap between steps soleil falls, and there are about 10 of em on this porch. So eery moment instead of relaxing in the weather, I had to hop up and run around catching soleil before shes slips on the stairs...well lets just say that hr daddy didnt come home till nine thirty...so there you are. and that was that
tuesday- well today dana didnt leave till five so I thought i was working normal hours but sadly i was wrong. Once again I was at that house till (:30 watching over solaeil and i discovered a very very very interesting fact. She enjoys dancing. For some reason i just started clapping my hands and saying dance in cambodian and she began to dance. It was soooooo cute. And on that note she started to do that head bobby thing like in Rush Hour when they were singing War. It was Hillarious but she took a nap around seven where I then watched friends and the simpsons. During the simpson She woke up looked at me waved, rubbed her eeys then went back to sleep. And that was the end of that chapter.
wednesday- Same deal as th past two days but instead of entertaining soleil through other means i found that running around the living room sliding on my kneels and falling back hitting my head off the ground makes her laugh nonstop and it makes me sad. For her violence= funny. Besides that before she went down for a nap she started screaming like a banshee untill i gave her bottle then she calmed down...then she alternated between sceaming and drinking milk then she finally calmed down.
thursday- Today I was off so i just over there and they were both home so I asked for my pay and of course they said that they cant pay me because he didnt pick up his check so then me veasna kim and dany decided to go to Cambridge Side Galleria and lets just say after we got shaved ice we walked past a salon and we were "blessed" by some pigeons. So me and veasna run home and cleanse ourselved and run back. Well we had a good time and reminised about times in highschool and stuff. And when we got home i asked for my pay and they said tomorrow cause he didnt feel like picking up his check...::sigh::
Well thats all that has happened to me for the past week and tomorrow apparently im going to townline with my fam dan ron dave and possibly a few otehrs. Muah ha ha ha ha ha no matter what happens its gonna be hillarious |
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| Dancing In The Moonlight |
[Jul. 6th, 2004|12:33 am] |
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Hey guys this be your favorite asian repoting in seeing how stuff be going down. Well guys I know that not many people read this and all that but hey its a journal and some thing werent meant to be read. Well As this summer kicks into the month of july I have come to a conclusion...as I said during the final few days of highschool...this has been the greatest summer of my life. I know that so far there has only been one month of summer so far. but thats the point. Only after a single month I have had so much fun. Over the past thirty days, I have made daily trips to boston and the beach working on my wardrobe and my tan lines (gotta keep that asian tan during the winter at RIT ::shakes fist at sky:: Damnnnnn you snow belt) Well thats beside the point. Besides these random trips to boston and the beach I have had more time to hang out with both family and friends. I know that next year i will be alone and that if I have to much fun over the summer i will miss them more but hey thats the price I have chosen to pay. With my family, Kim and dany are the mizzen always draggin me along when im not feelin into it, but after like 10 minutes im totally having a blast and all that other good fuzzy warm feelings people have. And now my other cousin who has been absent for a while is slowly integrating back in and all that stuffs. Without them I would of never discovered the greatness of movies such as Lost in Translation and zoolander ::does blue steel:: As a great man once said that there has to be more to life than being really really really really ridicuously good looking. Granted im not really, so on and so forth its all good. Besides my family there are also my friends. There is Dan the harvard boy who be the man...whose parents are the most awesomest ever. Dan's been my main man since kindergarten and all that and its gonna be hard saying goodbye. Its gonna be wierd getting used to not assuming soething is happening on friday and all that. Whether it be watching Dan dave and ROn have band practice, or playing our hillarious made up games such as TenNis Ball, or out trips to Townline for pool or the movies to eat overly priced food stuffs while watching mediocre movies. Ive met new people and have had lots of fun. But there are still may people who I have to chill with (leah, you and ya fine arse muah ha ha ha)...hopefully get my licence. Parties to go to, one this sunday with dany and kim going to this nice looking russian guy's house. @ more months left to go till college, and two more months to have fun. I know this is not the end of my fun so ill be back soon reportin.
(ps. The reason why this entry is called Dancin in the moonlight, is that for some reason for the last two weeks I have been staying up up till 5am for no good reason booooyyyaaaaa.) |
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| Final Farewell... |
[Jun. 9th, 2004|12:15 am] |
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Hey guys this is your favorite asian. Havent wrote in this nonsense for a while, actually i made an entry two or three days ago but hey ive been busy. There are many things that ive come to terms with, the biggest one being that tomorrow I am graduating. Even though i may have said this before this even marks the end of the my High School careeer. I will truly miss the school. I know that some people say that they hate highschool and all that nonsense but i persoanly will miss the school. Within those hallowed walls many things have happened that do not regret having happened to me. Not all of it was good but most of it was. Tommorw as we are paraded as the tokens of our parents pride and honor, the moment will be bitter sweet. I will nay again se my friends as I pass through the halls, I wil never be able to hang out with Dan Dave and Rona t lunch and breakfast which has been our daily ritual for the past three years or so. Even though I plan to make this summer the greatest that it can be, I know the fun I experiment these last three months for a long time in Boston, it will never amass to the fun i have had in High school. I will miss many people, friends enemies and even some people who I consider my friends but not my good friends. I know a wave or a hello through the halls does not constitute a friendship but ill miss it. I know people are reading this and probably thinking to themselves that I am the corniest mother lover out there but what can I say im an overly sentimental guy and im proud of it. There are many people who are my firends who to be honest i never expected to be friends with but thats what highschool can do. It can destroy old friendships but at the same time create new ones. To those who I am refering to I am glad that you were my friends and Ill miss you. Not all of the people I talk about are graduating with me. A few are underclassman and now that I am graduating I feel that I am abandoning them. There are a few who i have only associated with this year but we have gained a strong friendship, I am saddened to have to break our ties after only such a short time but i will visit. To be honest without the people who have surrounded my life, if I were to remain the same as I was back in middle school, who knows were I would be right now, maybe in a ditch somewhere, but hey i dont have to fear cause my friends have helped me stay on track. My friends and younger family have been a great inspiration to me, telling me always to reject what my parents say because of their old school of thought that in this day and age is barbaric and cruel. To all those who read it whether friend or for I thank you for making highschool a truly memorable and awesome four years.
-Tony Yeng |
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| Life Through The Slants |
[Jun. 2nd, 2004|09:29 pm] |
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Well All, it has been a while since i have updated, well actually i dont think i have updated in like three years or so maybe even more but hey what can I say, i dun have much to say but now I do, so deal with it foo'(<~~gansta). Well where should I start...oh I know the end of highschool, the best/worst years of my life (dont worry ill explain it to ya later.) Well lets just say that as the school year ended I have began to appreciate things that I have not in a while. As the year drew to an end marking my first days as a responsible adult in this world, I have gained friendship from people who I though would of never been my friends. This year I met a few undercalss men who have become good friends of mine and I will miss then dearly and such. But with all good things there are always bad. ALong with the gaining of new friendships, at the same time I bwelieve and I have consulted with my friends, that other good friendships that I had are falling apart and we who were once friends are no longer. I guee I have to take the sour along with the sweet. BUt in highschool I have regret not a single thing, granted I kow most people say that and do not mean it, think what you will but I know that I mean it. These past four years have opened my eyes to many new things. I have experienced so many first through out my high school career (ps Im pleading the fifth on all that pervy nonsense, you pervs heh.) well thats about it I look foreward to a great summer and I await my future at the Rochester Institute of Technology. |
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| Existence is meaningless without pain... |
[Feb. 27th, 2004|09:49 pm] |
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Its your favorite asian here to tell you the makings of this kids life. Well even though im pretty sure that my first sentence wasnt really a sentence at all, im here to recap on life and all of its misery. Well first off today me and my friends went to townline to shoot a lil pool and possible bowl a smidge (the bowling thing didnt pan out,) well anyways the night started off fine everyone was having a good time, but some somewhere around seven o clock the mood of the night changed where me and my other friend just out of the blue felt really crappy and talked about how our lives were pretty much jokes. Even though i didnt ask him to expand on his thought, I know that my life is a joke because of all that has happened to me. There are only a select few of people who know the real me and most other people see this person that is part of me but isnt the true me. eleven years. For eleven years I have spent time tryng to get on peoples good sides but now i see now what is has brought me, nothing. Yes i know i was voted friendliest in the highschool, but still for some reason it feels empty. For some unknown reason i feel like I dont deserve it. Portraying a false image as truth is never a good thing and I have gotten away with it for eleven years. Now im not saying im the next evil dictator or something, im just saying that for the past week I have done and said things that have offended a bunch of people and i just dont know, and i continue to play this image until my time expires at RHS. Well besides that while shooting some pool I found out things about a person, and lets just say after hearing some of the things my friends had to say, my spirit was pretty much broken for the night and found out that I can be a bitter person when i want to be. Some of the things i heard brought me down so much bit id rather that happen than those things being kept from me. cause now i have a clear image about this certain individual. throughout the night i was inhaling a butt load of smoke and thats just not good for the lungs. By the end of the night I discovered how truly alone I am in this hazy dance that many call life and I think i might sit the next few songs out if ya know what im saying. Granted I know that existence is meaningless without pain and there is only so much pain a single person can take on a given day and ive reached my limit. well signing off is yer jaundice friend tony. |
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| Sad Sad panda |
[Feb. 21st, 2004|10:24 pm] |
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Hello everyone this is tony giving you a recap of my vacation. Wel pretty much me and my dad spent most of th vacation remaking the kitchen from the floor up and ets just say we have inhaled a good amount of sawdust. Today, I had a speech and debate tournaent and well lets just start off saying that I had to do a piece as a buddhist at a very religious christian school, about vampires (wierd combo I know.) I sucked. Flat out sucked like a guy named hilary in a maximum security prison when hes lonely. I got second to last in every round except the last round where i got last. Besides the massive suckingness performance wise i dont know how to qualify the down time we had. My and my friends had a good time playing charades but after that it went pretty much downhill, except when my friend ron had some unpleasantries... Lets just say someone i like was just plain out ignoring me and a similar thing happened to my friend. On the way home I was coughing up a storm cause my throat was so scratchy and was having a head ache because we rode home on a bus that was uber ghetto let me tell you. So Im sitting there in the dark with a head ache and a miserable cough while everyone else was singing and such, but the ride was entertaining, except for when sodavy started scratching the bajezzus out of my arm. Afterwards we
ended up going to wendy's where we ate dinner. Me and my friend were just sittin in the booth all gloomy and such being depressed, he was because of his issues and me cause i just get depressed at night and I just realized al the faults in my character and life.well after that we went home and here we are reminicing on how my vacation was. well see again later buh bye!!!!!!! |
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| PDA (Public Display of Asian) |
[Feb. 10th, 2004|06:21 pm] |
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So heres the skinny. I just came to the realization that within my life there are many internal struggles tat are surfacing now. here are some within the family that are starting to concen me a bit but i know they will be resolved when I leave to college. Besides that there really isnt much to say aout my life. Yesterday I went to UNOs for a college fundraiser and I had a ball with my cousin her firned and her mom we talked about al sorts of nonsense, college and prom being two of the subjects. Well before that my cousin's friend and her mom made me and kim wait for a good 40 minutes, and we felt like the biggest dorks, walking in and out of the restaraunt about five times. People probably thought we were either going out to smoke, make-out or some terrorist act of some kind. Well that was the day. Today was a day filled with just silliness and nonsense. Today in physics, instead of doing actual ap work, we discussed several issues, time travel, the conceptual possibility of teleportation, and who would win a boxing match, one of my friends or a kangaroo. Then, the rest of the day was pretty much blah until the last two periods, where I had ap calculus and english. IN calc it was pretty much a review day, but we were just talking aobut nonsense in the class. The funniest part in class is where we were chatting about public displays of affection and then my friend said public displays of asian, so I took i upon myself to pull my eyes back and of course everyone laughed. Then engish came around where me and my friend in english where we discussed the plural of cactuses and we came to the conclusion that it would be cacti. Well that was it for the day see you cats on the flip-side. |
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| fuck it |
[Feb. 5th, 2004|10:31 pm] |
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Yeah right now its 10:30 pm on a thursday and I have homework to do but as my mood dictates, I just dont want to do it. For english I have some nonsense essay about comparing Willie Loman to Oedipus the ki showing how wilie can be tradgic hero and such. But I should be doing calc hw cause my grade aint to hot in that class, but at this point in time, im sitting down looking at the book and then I think to myself fuck it. So i just closed the book and hopped onto the comp so i can distract myself from doing hw. Senioritis is kicking in let me tell you. Even though there is a strong will that drives me to want to finish school as soon as possible, there will be things and people who'll ill miss but thats a good four months in the future, so might as well just worry about whether there will be a hw check tomorrow ::sigh:: |
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| Payed In Smiles... |
[Feb. 5th, 2004|03:36 pm] |
Yeah, so yesterday I was on the Carol Tye show. It was a funny thing on that second rate public access show. Even though i didnt do anything that embarassing...I said so many chessy things for example: Ms. Tye asked what type of community service I did and I talked about how I did work over the summer at the Temporary Home for battered woman and childeren....anyways, She asked if I got paid and of course I said no because it was volunteer work, but then out of nowhere I just blurted out that I got paid in smiles....let me tell you i got all sorts of grief from my friends the next day. Anyways besides that and the fact that I looked all chubsy and such on the show it was pretty much a normal day. |
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| just testing |
[Feb. 5th, 2004|01:10 pm] |
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yea he so asian! |
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